Dreams

Dear friends, 

Since I currently can’t get any sleep, I thought I would write about what I think about when I sleep. I will be talking about the dreams I have, and not the kind we think about when we think of the future. I have been told many times I am fortunate to remember my dreams. It always has just been something I’ve been able to do, and a lot of the time they are just crazy scenarios. Today however, I want to bring your attention to a couple of the dreams that have come back too many times. 

A lot of my dream always seem to reflect life, which isn’t uncommon as some believe, their dreams reveal meaningful hidden truths. That’s why when I dream a lot of the time, I think about the practical stuff that happens to me. Sometimes my dreams can be a weird premonition and foreshadowing things yet to come. For a long time, I kept on having this dream where I had to go back to primary school. All my academic achievements now meant nothing, so I had to go back to school, and start from reception all the way up. The interesting thing about this dream, besides being picked on by the little kids was, I did eventually get around to doing this. As part of my course I went back to my primary school and went to every year class. Freaky no?

Another one of my dreams is me having superpowers. The powers all vary, but a lot of the time I have the power to fly, and in doing so I am so scared of falling out the sky. I know that dreaming about flying has something to do with me soaring or achieving something, and I think I know what it means. Not also that my dreams about me being a part of a group of people saving the world, make great fiction if I can remember the details correctly. Just like this one where there was a portal to another word, in the back of a bookshop. I wonder what that means?

Even more freaky is my mum and I are having similar nocturnal thoughts. Not too long ago we both had a dream where my niece moved into the house. Which is odd we would dream such similar things, but my mum dreamt her as baby, and I dreamt her as teen. In both scenario’s I wasn’t living the house with them. So, I’ve thought maybe that was my way of thinking of getting someone to help with the needs my mum has. 

With the lockdown I feel like we have been thinking about death quite a bit. As we have seen the number of people who have died from the virus. It makes sense I would dream about the people we have lost. An interesting dream I keep on having is my granddad’s death never happened. It’s just like in a TV show, it was faked and he’s alive and well. It’s a lovely dream because it tells me I miss him, and it would be nice to have him back if I could. The dreams don’t make me sad, they make me happy, and just nice to think pleasant thoughts about the deceased. 

The last recurring dream I’ve had, I’ve been having for several years, and it’s a very interesting story. Since my niece was young, I’ve had this recurring dream that she is about 14/15 and we’re in my car and we are driving somewhere. Eventually the dream expanded we were going to pick up some other kids for a day out. As time went on, I had this dream I was picking up a boy. Which was odd, cos I thought why would I be picking up another kid? Then my best friend had a baby. Then I figured out I was thinking about that, and then eventually it went that it was three of us going out, then over time it went to four, and my friend having another baby. We are sitting in my car going on trip, singing loudly to the music having a good time. I’ve never known where we were going, but it seemed fun. 

This wouldn’t be a post from me that didn’t have something slightly upsetting. In the past when I have thought about killing myself, this is always a thought that comes back to mind. This is one dream I can make come true. All it’s gonna take is me being alive to make it happen. Whenever I am on the brink of giving up my life, I have this dream pushing me on. Which is why I have it often when I’m feeling down. It isn’t something I must write to make it a reality, or something that can never happen. It will just happen if I make my dream come true. 

Sure, I’ve had other dreams that might be a little more abstract, but I like the realistic ones. It’s just my never stopping mind telling me things I already know or telling me I have many things I am left to achieve.

Xo FabEs