Loveeeeeee Post
Dear friends,
I know I'm late, but I've been busy. I know Valentine's day has gone and this year I didn’t celebrate it, I've been thinking about a few things. I’ve been thinking about the couples I’ve seen, the romance I’ve read and just generally just been thinking about. I have been thinking about my situation.
For some reason I do know why, I've been thinking about and reading romance novels. This might have been an influence from social media, but I think my thoughts started well before that. I mean how many of you are thinking and planning out two different romance stories, before bed over the summer? Just me then.
Since then I have read 3 romance novels. One that was meh at best, and properly thought I would do better. While the other two have been that popular series called Game Changes (Heated Rivalry) some of you might have heard of it. I feel like all of this has put in my mind in writing something better, and not maybe making it about generic sex. I have also decided all those books I got on Kindle time to read them. Before you ask, they are more MM Romance novels. How many till I get sick of it? Only God knows.
I think as I watch all this content about the bar being soooo low, and the amount of people who have the same take as me, are we all missing something. When in fact we’re not, we're not just around the right kind of people. Or my thought is, the people who are attracted to me, are the bad kind. While I personally feel like I am just missing out on affection. You know, a good old fashioned hug, not sex. I feel like I am missing that after a long stressful day.
Okay, so let's address what I am doing about it? As I like to remind myself and others, if you’re going to bitch about something and not doing something about it, then you have nothing to bitch about. The big toxic app has blocked me twice, so I have left it behind. I have gotten on the more serious apps, and besides the matching and blanking there have been a few people who have been okay. However, it has led to a few people racially profiling (I’m a top apparently). While it also has led to a lot of people using these apps as quick hookups. I have a little more faith in these, as I don’t think I am as heavily sexualised. As I can just be a bit more FabEs, the reader, gamer, and baker guy.
I know I've spoken on this subject before, but it is something that just goes through my mind. The only thing I am not thinking about is why. As that is simple, as I miss it and all these reminders just double down and remind me that I do. Which is why I am going to continue to read my books, and construct love stories for the characters I create. While hoping I make a fraction of my fantasies come true.
Can my romance book people tell me if I am being too weird? Could the people who are thinking like me, what are we waiting for? Or maybe, these delusions are very, very, tiny comforting ways for me not to give up hope. Let me know what you think.
Xo FabEs
