My Style
Dear friends,
Thought out my life I’ve been comparing myself to other people. Even more recently I have been comparing myself between other people. What I have realized is I don’t do what other people do. I have always done what I wanted, and no matter strange it might sound to a small percentage of people, I just did things my way.
I’ve been thinking about this concept a long while I have been trying to think about what I have done within therapy. Have I always been the average person? No, I haven’t, in a lot of ways I go out of my way to do things that would make me stand out. Not that I can have some extra attention, I like for me to do things I am interested in and doesn’t sound like a boring rehash of what someone else has done. I had this conversation with my University tutor recently, he wanted me to do something more streamline and traditional.
This angered me for a while, because when I am working school stuff, I have never allowed myself to be put into a box. I hate the idea I must be the same as everyone else, and it’s one size fits all. When in truth I know what works for me, and I need to be able to stand up for what works for me. What I don’t need, is someone going, well its good but be like XYZ. That’s me, and that’s not my style.
Also, there are a lot of things I don’t do like other people. Which isn’t deliberate all the time, but in some ways it’s me raging against the system. Since I have gotten myself back on the dating scene, there has been a lot of people telling me what’s not this is for. To that I say, were in the middle of a pandemic normal isn’t working right now. Second, why should I have to conform to something I never did any way. I am going to continue to push forward with my way of doing things.
I know I am not ready to date, and can’t in the traditional sense, I have been more forward of putting my agenda of meeting new people. For chats, friends and other activities, we might be interested in. So far it has gone a long way to getting me to talk to people who are a little more flexible on the idea of what a date/friend must be. Which proves a few people are down with the way I think. Which helps me think not everyone thinks the same way and we are a society of free thinking.
The idea we have be the same as everyone else is such a stupid idea. I think it’s got more to do with stereotypes and how we accept too many of them which we create this negative we deal with. Therefore, I am going to break down what is expected of my race, gender and sexuality to truly be just me.
Xo FabEs
