Spice Up Your Life
Dear friends,
How do you think you are within life? Do you ever think you are basic, boring or simple? Or do you have a little thing in you that needs to have a bit of a change? Or do you change up your routine so much, two days never look the same? Well I’ve been thinking about myself recently and I realise I do a lot even though I would believe that I am more pedantic in nature.
When it comes to work, my life is constantly on a timetable. That’s the nature of being an educator. You have a time and place where you have to be. You know what students you are going to be meeting, and know when you can take a break. I mean I don't get to choose when my holidays are, I just know when they are and I have to plan accordingly. I am not complaining about this, as for me this really helps me out. It helps me out with my mental health and more specifically my OCD. This of course helps me organise my day and priorities tasks accordingly. Some might wonder if this isn't boring, and towards the end of the year it is, which is why it’s great when the next year comes, and its new timetable, and this year new lesson times, so things have been mixed up there.
I’ve done a similar thing with the gym. I love going to the gym, I love the feeling it gives me. However, when I am going three times a week for 6 to 8 weeks at a time, it does become very boring and repetitive very quickly. Here I have to switch up what I am doing quite a lot. For personal growth and just to keep me engaged in going. Then eventually I also get bored of this, and then I have to think of ways to change things up again.
As for my hobbies, I have a few of those, and even then I have gotten too prescribed with this. I once had a different night and I would do different things. Mainly to make sure I am not doing one thing over the other. Two nights would be gaming, one for watching a movie, one to continue the series I have been watching. However, after a while I kept on breaking these rules, as I felt like I needed to do one thing over the other. Sure this was fine, when i was playing a massive RPG that needed hours to finish it. Or when I was consecutively watching a BL series one after the other. When I would just stop doing any of that, that’s when it noticed it was a problem.
I soon realised that I need to mix things up a bit, and add some chaos to my life. I realised in my somewhat elevated state that sometimes you have just got to mix up and try something new, try something old. Add some spice to life. I mean I feel like I do that in a lot of what I do anyway. I like to think I zig when people think I’m going to zag. I mix it up at work, all the time by deciding, I don’t want to do this boring text or lesson, and do something a little more “fun’ not only for my sake. I have only in the last year finally admitted to myself and others that I like a variety of different types of men. That I don't just want one type of person. As for sex, wait a few weeks. But I think all of this has been done for a purpose.
The purpose for me doing this, depending on the day, life can be short and it can be long. Why don’t we step out of our comfort zones every once in a while. I mean sure I have lived a lot, but staying stagnant is going to give me happiness. I will find happiness in doing a lot of different things. Why, because doing these different things has allowed me to gain a perspective about different things, many of which I will be exploring this season. While also making me have a wider personality. It would be less of me saying, “I know about that,” or “I have a friend that." I can say, “oh I’ve tried that, and it was…" I just think it makes you a well rounded person. Which has led to me observing the people who say, I would never do that, and then ask a multitude of questions regarding this thing. I used to think they were passengers of life trying to understand the magic, but now I think they're living in a world of wanting.
Think about it, that one thing you’ve said you wanted to do, why haven't you done it? If your first response is money, save and try again. Or is fear of not knowing if you will like it, or is just the fear itself. I think sometimes we need to face that fear and see where that leads you. Sure don’t do that thing if it’s going to cause harm (just have to say). But sometimes that fear will fade and what you’ve done is great. If it's the fear of failure, once again failing is good, because either way you learn something; how to do it better, or it's not really what you wanted. Just something to think about.
As for what I am going to do, I will keep to my routines for sanity’s sake. However, I am going to be a lot more flexible in what I am doing. It won't be a matter of, “well I’ve had a busy day, I don't want to go to the pub.” I’ll say yes and see what happens. I’m going to be open to a lot of new ideas. As I have learned I don't know anything, I am constantly learning and sometimes that is a good thing to know. I will be open to new and old things, and see how things turns out. I mean if it’s really bad, it might just make it up on here - something that is very scheduled.
Even though I am pedantic and calculating, that isn’t always a good thing. I know I am not boring, simple, or god forbid basic (eww). I am a person who is ready to change it up on a whim, get “crazy’ and roll with the dice. As this just spices up my life.
Xo FabEs
